For you, my forbbiden one: It's been almost two years since I've been in love, and I'm sure that what I'm feeling could make my life harder. The first time I saw you I couldn't belive my eyes, I've never seen someone this beautiful in my life, "How can someone so angelical could walk in the very floor I'm walking?", you have a sense of humor, which it's not that common among guys; You have a sensibility, some sort of femininity that traps me, and you're weird, which is perfect for me... You have music taste, you know what you're talking about, you're silly and a bit awkward and shy sometimes, the way that whenever I'm not in your circle you just turn around to smile at me or make faces just to make me feel like I'm part of whatever is going on, the way your hair moves when there's wind, and by the way, your hair is stunning. You're a weird guy, you're not like most of them, you feel like a human to me, you don't feel like a copy cat of everyone else and I love it; Maybe I'm stupid or something, but I think I like you, do you feel the same? I even made you a playlist... I know, it sounds stupid, it's been a while since I felt like this... I'm sure you don't feel the same, but there are times where you make me doubt... Like when you say I'm the most beautiful person you've ever seen in your life, or when you call me pretty, when you hug me... Am I seeing things where they're not? Am I reading too much into you? I feel so weird... I feel weird when I'm with you. I start shaking whenever it's time to see you, I sound stupid. I hate it. I cried about this. What if I'm never able to have you? To tell you this? Would you understand? Would you feel the same? Would you hate me or just ignore me? Are we even friends...? Because I want more than that... I feel stupid, it's 3 in the morning and I'm writting a letter that I will never send. I dream about you, you're so pretty that I want to kill myself. It makes me sick how pretty you are, how amazing you are, how weird (in a good way) you are. If we date, I would think about showing you this, I honestly don't know if you would understand my rambling since it's purely in english, but I hope someday you would think of me the same way I think of you... 20/06/2025, 3:23 a.m