What the f#&?k is this ? ? ?

So basically... I got fed up with my other websites and totally hated them, and I wanted to try smth new... I really loved the top part tho.

I wanted to take the pressure (that I settled on myself) off of trying to make every single of my sites look similar or in the same vein, and I found out that I really make them really ugly... So I tried a new style... I really like it, not gonna lie.

The music player is made by MONSIEURDOLL here on neocities click here to see the page!. I really thought it was pretty! I wanted to tested it out on another site but I couldn't quite make it fit, I think this is the best site to put it on.

I'm going to treat this as my very personal blog, and although Room 409 was a pretty personal blog, it's much more like a violent vent, and I'm honestly conflicted about writting down so much about my personal struggles on here... And I'm doing it again!/j... I take back what I said, it's times like this when you need a good personal vent to writte down every thought on your mind. Now thinking about it... It's kinda weird to just writte down your traumas and post it online... Might as well just go back to my good old Samsung Notes.

23-01-2025, first entry.

On a lighter note, I wanted to post shit that i've been obssesed lately!

First of all, I've been absolutetly loving From Under the Cronk Tree by Fall Out Boy, Some of my personal stand outs of the album are: Dance, Dance (ik its the "main" song of the album but it's so fucking good!!!) / Sugar, we're going down / 7 Minutes in Heaven (which i put on the playlist above!!) / Our lawyer made us change the name of this song so we wouldn't get sued (sorry but the title is so goofy, I love it!!)

Going back to reading fanfic was DEFINITELY NOT on my 2025, I'm not a huuge fan of steamy fics like I was before (what type of fucking bussines I had as a 12 year old with reading such explicit material about kpop idols...) but the Stardew Valley communitty on AO3 is making me crazzzyyy, my favs are def Sebastian/Alex and Sebastian/Sam... And I don't read fics about anyone else LOL, I really like Sebastian (I have an entire website dedicated about Sebastian ), I'm going to change a couple of things around bc I'm not entirely sure about the whole layout of the website, I think it's pretty shitty in my opinion... Which is funny because I've been coding for just a year and I get so frustrated about not being able to make a super professional or pretty website, it's like, relax bro??? you're an amateur and you're 16 why are so fucking harsh with yourself???? Altough I'm pretty proud of myself learning all of this by myself, OH AND TALKING ABOUT THIS, I wanted to link the tutorial I used to learn about HTML/CSS, it's called "HTML & CSS Full Course - Beginner to Pro" by SuperSimpleDev, it's def the BEST tutorial, he explains everything so smoothly and so easily that learning all of this was so much fun!!! love love love to him and the video.

27-01-2025